With glitters in her eyes

Let me start

2011-12-30T22:53:00.001+07:00

how's your Christmas?
I just can't believe it we're in the edge of 2011 and 2012 is just a few days away. Time passes so fast, even i can smell the beginning of 2011 still.
I've been abandoning this blog for too much time, and so one of my 2012 resolutions will be this: filling this page with tons of my love.
Yes I need a blank paper, personal enough, to be stuffed by everything inspires me through my way.

Well as much as I'm excited to continue this travelling year (yes, that's my own prophetic nickname for year 2012), i hope you have one too! :)

XXX,
Crissybelle

a glimpse of heaven :)

2010-10-06T21:14:00.000+07:00

"btw, there is something sweet for you on twitter.. "

*successfully stole my heart :)

when this pain won't go away..

2010-10-01T00:58:00.000+07:00

jadi ceritanya, sekarang udah jam 1 pagi. tapi si crista masih ga bisa tidur.. maklum, cita-cita jadi hansip sih gw. jadi ya bawaannya pengen ngronda mulu gn. haha *ok, jayus.*
so drpd mlongo ga jelas dan mellow-mellow tanpa henti, mending yuk kita kemon main isi-isian! *kok kaya' lirik lagunya 'kotak pos belum diisi.. prok prok prok' ya? @.@

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: minefral water
2. Last phone call: daddy
3. Last text message: jimmy
4. Last song you listened to: breathe - anna nalick
5. Last time you cried: barusan aja :)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: err?
7. Been cheated on: yes, especially with soccer game, or.. dotA. -.-"
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ahh.. you bet.
10. Been depressed: this is the newest news of my life.
11. Been drunk and threw up: thankfully, no.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. white
13. black
14. anything vibrant

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: like a lot!
17. Laughed until you *nearly* cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: hmph hampir semua
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3-4 i like big family! tp males hamilnya. -.-"
24. Do you have any pets: was!!!! too bad she's gone :(
25. Do you want to change your name: nah
26. What did you do for your last birthday: got 3 surpsises in a day.
27. What time did you wake up today: 7
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: crying and chatting
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: HOLIDAY
30. Last time you saw your Mother: nih tinggal noleh ke kanan aja udh kliatan lg dia. haha.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: this heartless heart
32. What are you listening to right now: my iPod
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nooo.. :(
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing in particular
35. Most visited webpage: fb, twitter, yahoomail
36. Whats your real name: christa priscilla
37. Nicknames: crissybelle
38. Relationship Status: single and happy!
39. Zodiac sign?: sagittarius
40. Male or female?: f
41. Elementary?: petra 5
42. Middle School?: petra 3
43. High school/college?: petra 2
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: med
46. Height: 1.59 m

47. Do you have a crush on someone? wooo basi
48: What do you like about yourself? sok nyantai padahal hardcore haha
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: i wish!!
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: hmm pas kepala bocor
53. First piercing: none
54. First best friend: lusiana
55. First sport you joined: lari hahaha
56. First vacation: bali
58. First pair of trainers: walah mana inget

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: pengennya sih terang bulan (banget), tapi.. :(
60. Drinking: nothing
61. Doing: chatting
62. Listening to: asher book's voice
63. Waiting on: willy selesai ngetik chatnya. panjang bener.. -.-"

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yes
65. Get Married?: i still want to figure it out.
66. Career?: yes

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: hihi nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: may i be abstain?

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no, and won't
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: yes
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: kinda haha
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: no, attraction at the first sight
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today? YES YES YES anhd it made me happy!
96. Ever cheated on somebody? no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? highschool times
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? erm.. christmas.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? YES.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? err... haha, i'm leaving!

true love will set you free, possession will only imprison

2010-09-16T15:18:00.000+07:00

i was literally scheduling myself to take a rest this afternoon, but suddenly as i opened one of my friend's blog, i felt the push to write down mine.
it's been a very long time eh?
i miss writing as well. :)

life's been so kind to me lately. well, it's not running smooth nor perfectly as i expected it to be, but you know.. among all of the messy stuffs, i felt God' grace. i felt His presence. silent presence, but close to me, and still.
lotsa things happened, and most of them tasted bad. tasted like.. broken-heart.

internship was doing so well. i enjoyed every single moment i had, and i met too many important people i never dreamt of i'd had met. i learned so many things, i migled with fun and warm co-workers, and.. it was just went out so well and left good memories within this heart.
but it also brought something that changed my entire perspective of seeing life.
of seeing my youth life.

hampir dua bulan tinggal di Jakarta bikin aku 'melihat' segalanya berbeda. kehidupan Jakarta, kemandirian untuk survive di sana, dinamika masyarakat Jakarta yang lebih liberal dan penuh tuntutan, semuanya bikin aku belajar satu hal: hidupku baru saja dimulai.
aku terlalu excited to be in Jakarta with my three loves: Liang, Pepeng, and Ujang.
kami menemukan banyak hal baru, dan pengalaman ini bener-bener bikin kami terpacu untuk jadi 'more than a face in the crowd'.
hidup harus punya makna! hidup itu harus punya tujuan yang berarti.. bukan hanya sekedar menyelesaikan kuliah, lulus cumlaude dan aktif berprestasi, kerja di perusahaan dengan gaji 5jt sebulan, nikah, punya anak, and that's it.
nope..
life's more than just living the routine.
dan untuk kami, yang dialiri dengan darah desain dan seni, kami merasa.. hidup itu juga harus dijalani penuh dengan ekspresi dan apresiasi.

dan tiba-tiba aku merasa, i need to be free.
free to do anything i want.
free from any boundaries that bind me.
dan salah satunya, free dari ikatan hubungan kasih.
well at least, for now.

dan ngga' mudah memohon untuk dilepaskan.
aku sudah milyaran kali mencoba supaya bisa dibebaskan, tapi sepertinya permintaan itu ngga' dianggep.
dan itu bikin aku stress. karena aku merasa dijadikan pusat kebahagiaan.
"kalau tanpa kamu, crista, hidupku ngga' akan bahagia".
bukannya semua orang itu pada akhirnya adalah sendirian?
dan bukannya yang sanggup memenuhi kekosongan diri itu adalah Tuhan, dan bukan manusia tidak sempurna lainnya?

pikiran ini bener-bener membunuhku pelan-pelan sampe' rasanya susah untuk bangkit.
ak benar-benar tertekan dan rasanya capek banget.
until one sunday afternoon, pas waktunya latihan paduan suara di gereja, aku dapet lagu ini.

FREE - Kirk Franklin

I know the pain you feel inside
And the tears you try to hide
In your heart you ask God, "why?"
"Can You help me, will You help me, please?"
"Take away the pain,
Where's the sun I feel the rain."
Then I hear Your spirit say..
That I am

(Chorus)
Free
Free to lift my hands
Free to say "Amen"
Free to know that someday I will smile again
I'm free
Free to laugh not cry
Free to live not die
Because of Your love for me,
I'm free!

entah kenapa, waktu pertama kali aku belajar lagu ini, membaca liriknya satu per satu, suddenly my tears were falling down. buatku lagu ini ngga cuma sekedar berkata, "kamu berhak untuk bahagia".
tapi bahwa aku bebas. aku ngga diikat oleh siapa-siapa.
dan aku bebas untuk mengerti bahwa oneday i will be happy without any burden.

masalahnya masih belum selesai.
malah semakin susah. dan aku semakin stress.
sudah lebih dr semingguan aku terbiasa tidur di atas jam 3 pagi, dan bangun jam 8 pagi.
biasa ngga' makan (sehari pernah cuman makan 2 suap nasi yang berupa sushi haha), dan skip kerja tugas.
dan kayaknya hidup jadi sempit banget.. gloomy, and dark.
oh, dan hebatnya, aku terbiasa untuk fake a smile.
ketawa ketiwi di depan temen-temen.. but inside, i'm dying.
dan semakin tertutup, even i can't recognise myself.

tapi tadi, pas akirnya aku ke kampus setelah sekian lama absen (and i feel like a stranger in my own campus!), ngurusin segala macem hal yang udah lama aku tinggal, mondar-mandir gedung C dan W dan EH buat nyariin orang, ngurusin surat, ngurusin administrasi PSU.. i suddenly felt like.. "hey, it's good to be alive eh?". i've been dying for a long time..

i think the cure of this desperate valley is to wake up, stand up, face it bravely (even when you're not sure you have enough courage to do it), and just simply move on..

and i think i learn one important thing about love (terinspirasi sama film bioskop ga jelas yang kutonton tadi malem, well but pemain coowknya cakep abis gila!):

true love will set you free, possession will only imprison.

dan sekarang, badan sudah semakin lemah. :(
cabut dulu deh.

:)

randomness

2010-07-30T09:08:00.002+07:00

"WE ARE DESIGNERS. we notice things in a different way to other people. We appreciate the nuances of a certain typeface, the way a sofa or a chair is shaped just so, and the textures and lines that define an architectural space. We are URBAN creatures, and the cities we live in inform who we are and what we do. We know the The friendly Restaurants, designed with love and care; the bars with alternative music, good cocktail list and a crowd that is cool but not intimidating. We know the little local gems that have remained reassuringly unchanged through the decades, the skylines and street-scenes that make our cities unique, and the rivers and parks that give us space to think. We look for open-mindedness and experimental-ism, wherever we go, and we find inspiration in unexpected places."

from Ducia & Ianabelle
:)

get to know yourself better

2010-07-26T08:23:00.000+07:00

got the link from one friend's blog, and spontaneously felt the urge to try.

the result was.. "Yeah i think so.. it's me." hahaha.

you guys should try it too, it's good :)

source: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

and this is mine,

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Local Inspirations

2010-07-14T12:22:00.000+07:00

Photo: Andra Alodita
Styling: Imelda Hudiyono & Marysia Winarta
Make up & Hair: Marlene Hariman
Model: Moudyzanya
Photographed at: Pasar Mayestik

GEULIS latest lookbook
See how much our young local designers had brought up Indonesia's taste into a fashion perfection. This artwork really inspires me quite much.

To work is to create, not just naively making money. Am i right? :)

latest melody

2010-07-14T09:22:00.000+07:00

and i don't know how but with you i dance
in a storm
in my best dress
fearless..
Fearless - Taylor Swift
played over 100,000 times over this month :)

meanwhile

2010-06-07T16:31:00.000+07:00

the holiday is soon being on my hand, but all of us really have to pass the exam week first ( = deadlines week! huh.)
what sounds too good to be true is because in this holiday, i will:
1. have my trip to Bali!
2. get my very first internship experience! yeay! "\(^.^)/"

i finally approved by the Indonesia Design Architectural Magazine team, and for one month i will be there to help them produce another edition. :)
i'm so fed up with autoCAD and 3Dz MAx thingy, so i chose to send my CV to mass media.
ahh~.. one step closer to fulfill my CV with one treasureable experience. :)

meanwhile, a dear friend had been home from his interesting trip in SGP, and he brought us funny (same) stuffs as a gift: an orange moose doll.

i named mine, RooRoo.
and here he is now: accompanying me working on my things.
oh and this is a sneak peak of my workspace. i love it more and more (and keep adding more and more little thingies. ha!)

anyway, i got a new baby! going to name her Adelaide. :)

the other sights

2010-03-02T18:10:00.000+07:00

so these are some of my old shots. as always, rockafella was there to be my constant models. :)
i miss taking photographs. mostly the random ones.
it's like promising myself to bring my Millie whenever i go. to capture the wonders of the world. to freeze what i see, to record what i'm feeling.

*pinky promise. ;)